Sometimes... well lately it seems like always or all the time for me. I just want to walk away. Just leave, start somewhere else a new with nothing to look back to. Just walk with out looking back, with no word or any desire to go back.
Sometimes it feels as if what I have right now is not what I really want. The more I work towards getting what I want I seem to fall deeper into a hole of not what I want. I mean what I do I do right now it seems like I am just helping everyone else achieve what they want and help them get what they want. Yeah I'm making money and I'm thankful that I have a job right now in this tough economy but I just feel like I'm working towards my demise into an empty and eternal lonely slumber.
Today was just one of many eye opening days. I feel as if I have no self identity. I am immersed into this what ever it is that I am doing that I do not know who I really am. I have no self style, image or foot print. Today was it, I realized it loud and clear. I do not know who I am anymore. I can't differentiate my many personalities I have had to learn to survive in my place.
It feels as if the only option is to turn around and keep walking...
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